**All about myself**

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Every day she would ask herself what are her aspirations in life. What are her needs and desires? And she would always end up with the answer of just wanting herself and the people around her to be happy. Even when she looks carefree, she doesn’t feel complete or happy. She knew she was not the only one growing up thinking of what they wanted or why were they born in this world, with no specific and perfect someone to look up to, no one to understand or accept their imperfections and make them feel valid. Believing in their potential instead of downgrading them and putting them into a corner where society expects them to be. No one to commemorate what it is like to dream of the idea of having talent or even the beauty of differences. Everyone wants her to be good in all aspects, finish a degree as much as possible, get a job, and be settled at a certain time. She is a woman whose every move could be followed by criticism when she fails to control things in her hand. It frustrates her, thinking how unfair it is on her part, and she just wants to quit and call it even. However, despite these thoughts, she is a pursuer of dreams and she is now on her journey to the unknown. *I want life to surprise me,* was a go-to response for me if somebody asked how I saw myself in 10 years. I am **Gwyn**, a 23-year-old BSED-Science graduate, from the northern part of Cebu, Philippines. I've never been the *planner* type of person; yes, I have ambitions and goals in life, but they've never been tied to a specific timeline as to when they're supposed to happen. As newly graduated from college, I am aware that I am about to face challenging situations in which I will question my self-worth, talents, capacity, and strength in dealing with the demands of adulthood. But, hey, I'm only 23, a wanderer caught up in a whirlwind of what-ifs and what should've been. I am 23, but all about my ***hobbies,*** I still enjoy channeling my inner child by being a simp over Disney animated movies or Barbie movies. I am 23, and I still perform in front of the mirror to classic and pop songs. I am 23, and I still cry over trivial matters that have touched my heart. Because I am only 23 years old, I have a lot in store for me, and I believe I am bound to greater possibilities than I allow myself to go through. Yes, I am now in my adulthood, but among my friends, I will always be the loudest, craziest, and, as they say, funniest. To their eyes, I was a ray of sunshine whose contagious smiles and laughter lit up the entire room. Nothing has changed, I am still as cheerful as I can be, and there is more room in this world for me to share my purpose, not just for my family, but I also know that there are other people out there for whom I can be a source of hope. ![377884510_1392153714681549_3106523091992034457_n.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/apieceofgwyn/EoEr1km5XbG6PQ1aFr5bK3oCY9DRcLTmwJGHamm3E95sY9bPuBNNqW3nTERxiSDWLuU.jpg) This thought made me appreciate even more the value of the degree I pursued in college---teaching. Being someone's last straw in making their hopes and dreams a reality is the core of having a passion for teaching. But is this my life's purpose? Teaching? I'm not sure, but I believe that a person's life purpose may not revolve solely around one thing; there may be others, and the world is large enough to find out. Perhaps today's times tend to be overwhelming, especially with what is in front of us and I think that's one factor of how challenging life's daily agenda is for each one of us. Remembering my years being a 6-year-old kid, I would always be brought back to how life was simple and just fun. An everyday habit of an elementary school girl would always revolve around eating, studying, and playing, and by play, I mean rolling over the grass and experiencing nature with peers with no pressure and stress to tend to. But now that I'm an adult, I have a lot to think about; being the eldest of three siblings has given me unintended responsibility, and being an *Ate* is such a heavy word. Despite this, growing up taught me to be gentle with myself and to just trust the process. ![gwen.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/apieceofgwyn/23w2ipM8LT846Qus5r9pmcrspnM51EXji84C3JPb1kUrBe1q5Ztxir2qgkWnWBVvaLotw.jpg) In the meantime, I am enjoying the season of my life that I'm in right now, which is my waiting season. True to what people say, not all good things may come to those who patiently wait, but perseverance while waiting will get you somewhere. With that, I am currently putting importance on my preparations for next year's LET exam, while constantly remembering to give glory to the one who is responsible for every step I take--God. Six years of service in YFC (Youth for Christ) with these incredible people with whom I share the same passion for the mission of bringing Christ to the youths, this community has had a significant impact on how I continue to be grateful and hopeful in whatever phase in life I embark. **Why I am here?** ![gnw.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/apieceofgwyn/EopsscXvVKcbUde3zkfpnjrS76MSJKygzDzg9GxZJM7bsY2S8r81Yau9695aXKNKbhj.jpg) I feel like I have so much in me that I don’t want to gatekeep, and so, that is why, I am considering joining here. I am grateful to Sir @ybanezkim26, Sir @intoy.bugoy, and Miss @indayclara for sharing their knowledge about this platform. They are the amazing people from HIVE who make time to share their stories and journeys with us, encouraging us to try out what this platform has to offer. ![gwn..jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/apieceofgwyn/Ep3eqrCUdGPb1nWoxSWkqcKsP8kUSaQ117CCc8s4GPJxkc73sJ2UDyaFT9NfhqVeWu3.jpg) As such, I would like to look forward to seeing this platform as an outlet where I can express into words the emotions I have longed to convey and perhaps become someone who I never expected myself to become a *storyteller*. Indeed, I am only 23, I have still a long journey as to who I am going to be.